I'm Not Dead...

[Kail† 0]

As a child, I professed Your name

Cried out and said I loved You with all that I had

For a time, things seemed like they weren't the same

And in You I became exceedingly glad.

 

But the clouds are shrouding in my life again,

I'm reminded of hate, reminded of sin

Now you said that in You I was truly alive,

So why is it right now, that I feel like I'm dead?

 

Everyday is the same, and pain runs deep

Your voice seems so distant that I can't even sleep

I have no desire, no passion, nor love

and when life starts to push, I just let it shove

 

You say You are close to the brokenhearted,

a Psalm I won't soon forget

But where was the mistake that I made,

The one I knew I would regret

 

I'm praying that I'll see the light,

that I might hear You again

that I could muster the passion

to read Your word again...

 

Break me down, Lord, I know that I'm not dead

This journey isn't over, for many times You've said

that I don't have a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power

so I could stand upon Your word, and take heart within this hour

 

So hold me close, and hear my plea

that I might finally come to see

these things that I do, that are not of you

will never truly see me through.

[chess123mate† 0]

That's beautiful...

[Wolvy† 0]

It's a modern psalm, and lifts me up to hear it and know that we all share the same struggles from time to time. I'm also currently in a low spot of life right now so I can really relate, Kail. You are right to see that the journey is not over and is long, with highs and lows. There's sometimes some deep, dark valleys that we cross and at other times, the narrow dim path leads us unknowingly out through a mountain pass, the grey clouds part, and a grand vista awaits to make us gasp and see the glory of God.

Thanks, mate~ I hope we see that vista together some day