SuperKuddlor

Leave the place in which I was ignited and sleep somewhere that I feel comforting, but I don't have that place.

Thanks, I needed this. I keep getting so angry... I don't want to let go because I think I'll lose my track and mostly I do. It's a lose-lose for me. The better solution is to get away from anger.

I don't understand this being-cast part.

Read it just now. It's interesting. Now, I'd like to know something. Do we REALLY need to do ANY work to be saved? It says that faith without work and vice versa is bad. What does this mean? Does this mean becoming perfect or striving for faith, hope and love? I'm confused here. Eph 2:9 says that we weren't saved by works, but James 2:14-26 explains that faith without works is dead. BIBLE VERSE CONTEXT CONFLICT! What now?

Wait. Why am I supposed to see my enemies better than me? I suppose that's why friends exist to make each other important, yay :3 Zvoc uses context, it's super effective. +5 pleasure.

Thank you, buddy

Oh God. Reading this just makes me feel guilty for all of my impurity. We?? Body of CHRIST??? Oh God.... How embarrassing it is to be that impure. I mean, yes, I fail, but.... It looks so awful! Yet, Father forgives and forgets, thanks to Jesus. This logic breaks any logic of vengeance. Wow. Speaking of which, I don't know why I feel guilty. If we are the Body of Christ, then why am I so faulty? Why am I so unhappy? I hope to find out if this book has an answer.

I won't be buying any of Nintendo's products because their EULAs have espionage approvals.

I didn't start the crowdfunding because people told me I have to first make something so that they can pay.

As much as I know, I've been serious all along. Also, I use my fursona to show people who I am, but sometimes, it's not enough to filter the "glitchy buffer-overflow malware" information in my brain from making you hurt. I'm sorry. I wish to hug you. I'm after all a comforter. I've fallen and failed to deliver love and I've shot a bazooka of hatred, but I'm getting up and I want to clean up after myself and amend my behavior. I'll try controlling myself harder. And that's really true. My internal destroyer is truly that devil's voice that we're guilty and cannot be forgiven. But more like manifested in such way that it's like an entity trying to make me angry and swear and punch and even say horrible sexual cuss words that involve God. I remember when I once did that without knowing I would. It was a split second it became. It was during my psychotherapy with pills that have sexually dysfunctionalized me and made me extremely aggressive. I had no idea this would happen. I was even angry and in sorrow how people blasphemed God. My destroyer made me become my enemy by "defecating from my mouth" on God's name. That's the most brutally true way of confessing it (it's not funny, really. I use these harsh words with full seriousness to describe the obscenity of my destroyer's takeovers). That was one of the most anti-me moments in my life. I couldn't believe I did it. Same as here, I've done so many wrong things. I'm sorry. It seems I have to forgive myself too, not just repent to God. I keep forgetting that due to my disability of how I started forgetting so many things. I think my brain is dying on me. Cannot study, cannot reason, cannot think right, cannot be calm, thinking sexually deviated stuff like if someone installed a virus called ForceCubYiffThoughtsAndDestroyWhateverZvocLoves.exe into my head. You have no idea what kind of affinities I have because of how much the devil hates me for being so courageful to grab onto God. He wants to show me as a fool and as a non-Christ-like. He wants me to, in rage, destroy what I love as much as I, in my head say "no no no no no!". The more I say no, the more he does it. It's not just falling into temptation. It's more like a rage moment where I can physically vandalize items. If not to the asylum, where should I go?

Just one last thing. I do read my Bible. I just don't like reading one Bible verse without another. I think that reading the Bible partially is counter productive. I've shown that in the other topic as an example. There is proof of sin gradation, but let's leave that for tomorrow.

The Bible has no heresy, but some Bible interpretations do. Say for example, you think children should be stoned Deuteronomy 21: 18If someone has a stubborn and rebellious son who does not obey his father and mother and will not listen to them when they discipline him, 19his father and mother shall take hold of him and bring him to the elders at the gate of his town. 20They shall say to the elders, “This son of ours is stubborn and rebellious. He will not obey us. He is a glutton and a drunkard.†21Then all the men of his town are to stone him to death. You must purge the evil from among you. All Israel will hear of it and be afraid. That's not what Jesus says. You cannot take that seriously because God amended this: Romans 12: 17Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everyone. So is the Bible heretic? No. Is the interpretation of Deuteronomy without Romans a heretic believing? Perhaps. Now don't say that I'm a hypocrite because I was going mad because I didn't know what to do and I DID NOT want to be hurting. I saw you as my enemy for some reason. My mind just clicks that way and I cannot let go. I felt like I MUST point out my "enemy"'s "attack". I felt like if I don't that I'll look like a fool. I have this curse in my life It's my curse that when I try to defend myself, I become my enemy. Enemy: You're a monkey. Zvoc: No I'm not! Enemy: YES YOU AREEEEE!! Zvoc: Nooooo!!!! *screaming like a monkey because of brain panicking in fear from being what it's not* This is my curse. This is what I've had all my life. This is what makes me an aggressor. But YOU ARE NOT my enemy. Check the next example out. Sometimes, a friend tells me "Hey, you look like a monkey. You should wash your fa-" and I burst from the uncontrollable fear and THINKING he said "Hey nerdface, you are and you look like a monkey! Wow!" NO MATTER HOW MANY times I try to re-read or re-hear. My brain just won't let go! Except when I make a fool out of myself. Like my brain wants to make a fool out of myself. I believe there's an internal destroyer in my head. I cannot control myself sometimes. I wish I could.

I'm not breaking down what I said. I'm being faulty and not being able to control myself. Your words (probably non intentionally) threw me out of my peace. If any Bible verse, any law, anything is against my peace, I shall not accept it. I've made a deal with God that I shall not accept anything that I don't receive with or see with love. The only bad thing I did was that I tried to deal with this myself instead of letting God handle it. I'm prideful there and I confess that. And I repent for that. I believe only in the Catholic works that are inspired by the Holy Spirit. I can sense which ones are good and which ones are bad. I can feel them with my soul. Whatever tries to defy my perception of that makes me very sensitive as it attacks my moral settings. Also, I took the Bible verses from some Catholic defense websites.

What about this: See? You've judged me! You said that I don't care! Also, I cannot listen to anything heretic to the Catholic Church because my soul burns in fear from absorbing something that can destroy my salvation. I'm sorry for insulting you and I really feel sorry. As an amendment to this, I will stop talking about anything involving: "Nobody is better than other" "All sin is equal" "Everyone is guilty" Saying that I'm attacking when I'm not Provoking me and then whining why I blow up instead of hugging me to calm me down as I hug all of the furries I see the devil talking through you with this "understanding". Why am I to understand that I should be not caring when I am caring!?!?!? I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE SAY THAT I'M NOT HELPING WHEN I AM! And I ALSO HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE COMPARE ME TO MY ENEMIES! I shall not let this happen! I shall not let this be! I'm going to save all my progress and posts on this forum and move away. I could rather have had better time telling all my Church choir girls about the furry fandom and having a little furcon there with real-time role-playing, praying for the fandom, talking about the fandom's problems, talking interpersonally, etc. than getting pissed off by some Bible-twisting people who just use the Bible to scare me and all what I believe in and throw me into a real life hell of fearing! If you have not wanted to destroy my faith, I'm sorry for burning mad at you. I have this mental disorder because of which I'm to such an extent "hyphotized" thinking that I'm attacked no matter how many times I analyze what you're saying. It could be a demon. I don't know. But if you really are what I hope you are, I'm very sorry. I mean, I'm sorry anyway because I've spread open-fire hatred and polluted myself and others with hatred. I will repent about my reactions as always. I keep getting memories of old enemies attacking me and it saddens me when I see someone here doing the same even if they're not really doing it. I'm so scared and cannot help it. Maybe I should really go to an asylum to get the fear center of my brain lobotomized. I'd rather accidentally put my hand in fire and die because I don't know it's bad because my fear center is lobotomized than burn in rage towards everyone I touch in fear from some people that I've had trouble in the past.

No law has higher priority than what God says. And the Catholic Church believes that once the government loses authority and deviates from God, it's no longer to be abided. "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law." Galatians 5:22-23. If these guys are trying to destroy my peace and joy and self-control, they cannot. Even if there was a "law", it's nullified by this. And what if I cannot go to those who made the laws? I cannot and shall not obey any corrupt laws as long as I live and I promise that! I'd rather be excommunicated from all "churches" than burn in Hell for abiding corrupt laws. I actually don't counter your sayings, but I just keep hearing the anti-Catholic doomship and it drives me crazy.

No, I didn't take it out of context the second time in the first paragraph. Yeah yeah. I hate when people tell that humans are ship p=t and that only Jesus makes us something. I believe otherwise. God isn't someone who's just like "I don't care what you can or can't, you go to Hell", but someone with LOVE! Without love, all faith and belief is useless. I always use love. The unconditional love. And the bigger priority from faithfulness and dishonesty is faithfulness and that's what is the result. You again took me the wrong way and thought I have something bigger than God as a priority. I have no idea why are you so anti-me. Oh come on, now you've hurt ME by ass=u+me-ing what I've just said! And you LIAR! I DO CARE! How unthankful you are! I'm here all day on Christian Furs trying to help and you say that I don't care. Great! Among all stress that I have, I hope to preach and talk a bit and pray and this is what I get as a result!? I've written so much in the past how to believe, how to be faithful, etc.. The summary is just to go to Jesus! Just say "Jesus, Jesus,..." and believe in that the mountain gets thrown into the sea! My testimony says that whatever I believe in my heart without doubt and that's inevitable for salvation, sooner or later it WILL happen. And yeah, I seek fellowship to be stronger. I can't do it alone. That's why I'm here. I mostly get faithful when I preach to someone else because I feel rewarded by God for preaching. By helping, I help myself too. I focus when I have capacity to focus on. Now, don't judge me regarding of that because only me and God know how much I have capacity and I have this OCD that makes me explode when people try to prove that I'm something that I'm not. DISCLAIMER: I am not responsible for the consequences of pulling my tail. I have faith and knowledge and everything, but my brain doesn't and I'm here to refresh myself to God's word again to get to know it because I keep forgetting due to the OCD and the demonic attacks. I'm serious, since 2015, I've started forgetting a lot. I don't give my faith for anything. I won't sell it for anything! I have faith in Jesus's permanent friendship and salvation and I cannot deny that. My brain might, but that won't make me be unsaved. I'm not bound by what pills I take or what the HAARP tries to program into my brain. I'm only bound by my relationship with God and faithfully one day I will be bound to God forever with no way to detach.

The thing is that I repent almost for everything and I'm so scared that I repent like I won't be saved. But that's an extreme. In some cases, I might be justifying myself, but after a few minutes, I simply break down and repent and really can't take it. Actually, repentance is if I want to be good, but cannot be good. I remember during my mental explosions that I'd try to say something and my tongue would go like out of control and I'd say I'm sorry, but won't be able to control. It's those intrusive thoughts. What do you have to say to that? Btw, those aren't really happy times where this "Oh I repent and that's final. Hehe" can work because it's really hurtful and I feel the pain in myself and in others during those hard times. Hold on hold on! What if I'M set off??? What if someone swore God's name and I yelled at them because I didn't want them to make me feel sad by spitting at my Lord? This really happened. Also, sometimes non-verbal communications would set each other off and we'd be fighting for no reason. It's really horrible and I know that I must be with rage because otherwise I'll break into tears and look like a pussy and that's not manly and "no girl will like me". It's been buried deep into my brain to have this overactive justincaseish self-defense. I battle it, but it takes over me sometimes that I literally just at one moment feel sooooo sad like with a big itch! And to scratch that itch, I have to swear or punch, but it's sooooo seducing! It's like trying to not masturbate while the "kittymaker" really itches to such extent that I feel so depressed. That's also very adrenalinefull that I can't control myself or reach for my moral settings and I become someone else. What about that?

All of this is nullified by repentance. And I don't understand why would someone be justified by me if I say the truth and why would that make me condemned.

This Bible verse sounds contradictory which means it needs to have a special context because the Bible cannot be contradictory; it's just us hyoomuns having faulty brains. What if I'm faithful AND dishonest at the same time? What if I'm alternating because of my mental issues? You know, this is what bothers me a lot. I basically say that whatever has a bigger priority in life will be the result. If I believe, but my brain doesn't, it means I believe. That can't be proven by the Bible because Luke wasn't a psychotherapist. Because of this, the Bible without God is not enough because only by God can someone's faithfulness be measured. Now, about those who aren't faithful, I'd just say "be faithful". I don't actually analyze much about what happens to them. The verses 11 and 12 are obvious. Just be faithful.

Like this: Someone: *yiffs someone else* That's how people do it. It's so disgusting. What's more disgusting is when you're rebellious to the sin, the system pukes on you hypocritically with labels "bigot", "hypocrite", "crybaby", "troll". All systems that don't obey God must DIE! Not the people, but the systems that tame them to Satan.

I'll tell you one thing. Don't use pre-made game tools except Unity and Unreal or maybe Construct. Instead, learn C, then C++ (DO NOT learn C++ before C! NEVER! It will cause knowledge holes that are hard to fill and those will kill your inspiration!) and after that SDL2 library. That's the most efficient way to learn how to make cross-platform games without worrying about copyright. The best of all, you don't have to give credit to the SDL Team or use a GPL license (except SDL1 which is LGPL which is for C), but you can manage your project and license it just the way you want! I've downloaded a game development book for SDL2 and I'll be studying it.

Aww... Why does everyone program web while I program games?

Welcome! Say, you're into computers? Do you program in C++ and Game Maker Language? I've been thinking about writing games in SDL2, but couldn't get my foxcat butt up to actually learn SDL2 and C++. I do know C, though, but have problems with C++.

If that's all so easy, then perhaps I've had a horrible phone that I didn't even know how good phones actually could be. I don't understand these Cubot phone models. Can you show me a table with prices and performances comparison?

Hello, I'm looking for an Android phone with these specifications at lowest price: 1GB of RAM where the system doesn't spam-use too much of it, but leave at least 300MB free when the phone is in standby mode No audio latency or audio stuttering Have Android 4.0 at least Be easily rootable with no risk of bricking Need no need to root to make a screenshot Have a camera that can focus good enough to take a picture of a drawing on a paper Be stable while running Skype video call + Opera Web Browser + YouTube without terminating any of those Be viligiant to receive Skype messages as soon as possible when the internet connection is available Be able to remove Google account without having to reset the phone Be able to run Super Tux, Fun Run, Fun Run 2 and Dino Dash (one at the time) Make difference between internal storage and SD card Doesn't have a weary flash storage memory Has at least 2GB of user-allowed storage memory I hope that's all because I have to go to bed. I might edit this post. So does anyone know of the cheapest phone with these characteristics