"Come to me all who labor and are heavily laden, and I will give you rest."
Matthew chapter 11, verse 28.
Jesus asks us to come directly to Him. Don't focus on your own self, as one member here posted. Focus on Him. Pray. Look to Him, the source of all things good! Give up your burdens to God, and He will give to you peace. Love Him, for He loves you. Know it, too.
Proverbs chapter 3, verses 5 through 6.
After all the pain you've been through, and all the broken promises and words said behind your back, and after all those who have wronged you... It's hard to trust. I have trust issues. I try to lean into what I think, for what I think is all that I have understood from my own life.
But understand this: You can trust God. He truly loves you, and love does not seek to hurt you or do you wrong. God is with you. And with Him will you make it through life alive and well, spiritually well. Trust that He'll take care of you, seek Him and His will out, and do as He desires. It may hurt now, but He knows what He's doing.
Every beautiful work of art cast in a mold must go through the fires to be formed into what the artist desires.
He has cast you. Will you fight the beautiful things He wants for you?